In this text, I want to reflect about the impact of the process of my Autoethnography performance training from 2011 in my work/research/life with . . . as a teacher, a researcher, and as a woman standing from a contemporary QI conducting research and teaching about the unsaid topics of the new movements of migration of people in the border of northern Chile from/in and outside the academia. Color, violence, historical influence and Andean migration process, forgetfulness, borders, and the "normal" attitude turned into action as "not to see"/not to feel/not to believe the big problematic realities in foreign lives. All of these are part of this performative text in which I reflect and confront daily life experiences; my academic role and the risks and threats that my latte color woman’s voice mean to the academia in these times.