This autoethnographic performance life piece captures my early adolescent dilemmas with my Black-queer-Christian identities. Told through five flashbacks, I conjure critical moments turned critical memories to explore and unpack my struggle with the dichotomy of secular versus sacred and the holy versus profane. Ultimately, this life piece seeks to excavate the remnants of my humanity that are buried deep within my memories to tease out what it means to live forever between oppression and liberation.